I decided a few days ago in one of my quiet times that I wanted to commit fully to God.  I want him to become more than enough for me. That no matter the outcome of my life (Job, Path, Marriage, Children) would all be left to him.  I ordered a promise ring, A Manly Black Steel One, Thank You!  I want to fall in love with Jesus, my first love.  I know my desires will be fulfilled by him and I am learning to believe in the impossible.  I am here sitting in the backyard enjoying the breeze on my face and smoking a nicely lit slow burning smooth cigar.  Can you tell I enjoy Cigars, LOL!  A few thoughts shoot by my head and they are very familiar.  We all have those thoughts we are not very fond of that pop in and always at the wrong time.  Well, it just so happens that the chair next to me is empty to the naked eye but Jesus is chilling with me.  As the thought try’s to anchor itself the whisper from Christ still quiet voice SMASHES the sinful temptation.  We believe sin answers our call to “feeling” better and even to say it’s so OVERPOWERING that I CANT STOP!  There is pure truth that Satan and his demons play a part in trying to devour us, however we are the major players of sabotage.  We get this false sense of control like we can alter the trials we experience  and we are delusional to the point of telling God to stand aside because we can handle it.  The pain that follows is never bad enough because we typically choose sin to numb it.  That cycle is vicious and relentless in its pursuit to feed on our souls.  Nothing in us but our soul desires the glory of God because every other part of us is renewed!  It is our soul that goes to Heaven and we receive a Godly heart, flesh and thoughts.  The old stays in the grave and the New Us arrives in Heaven.  All the thieves and liars and sinful appetites are not allowed to follow us to Glory of Heaven.  A lot of times we do not think of this because we want those things have to “offer” us here and now.  Knowing now, emeshed in my soul, the truth that Jesus allowed himself to be destroyed then resurrected so that I would not be stuck in Hell confirms sin has nothing to offer but death. Death of Joy, Death of Peace, Death of Innocence, Death of Purity, Death of Mercy and the Birth of Selfishness.  When you make this life all about you, YOU ROT!

I refuse to be defeated and I refuse to listen to the liars, thieves and thugs of Satan.  I will choose Love.  Now when I look down on that promise( remember Manly Black Steel Ring) with that cross and the Lord’s Prayer I will remember I am His friend, His Son and most importantly of all His Beloved.  As I surrender I know that he will provide in that promise my future wife and I pray that he will bless her, mold her to deal with me(lol), and watch over her as he prepares me for her.  I am excited as I go on this purifying journey with my Papa for these next 5 months.  My goal is to fall back in Love with my First Love, Jesus.  Amen!

One Love, One King, All Christ!