I met with a close friend this morning who has a lot of wisdom. His relationship with the Holy Spirit is amazing and to sit and chat with him this morning opened the eyes of my heart. This past year has been a heavy one with loss. I lost 5 people this past year who I did life with in certain seasons. These were people who owned a part of my heart. They were significant in my growth as a man and they were dear friends and family. I felt the sense of loss when I learned of each of their passings. I am joyful that all of them were believers and are in Heaven, even more reason that my HOPE is in Heaven being real!!
Even though I felt the loss I did not react the way I thought I should have. I believe I wanted to not “GO THERE” if you will. I am not fearful of crying but I do believe I was very fearful of the feeling of loss. I fought off my first friends loss, well the depth of what it really meant to me. Then before I knew it more people were gone. So, today as I shared my heart with my friend, he explained to me that our soul needs to know we can hear it. Our soul speaks to us and when it comes to losing people who are close to us, OUR SOUL needs to know that we hear it. When we don’t hear it and shut that off well we shut off hearing it all together. We go numb and as we live life we miss those opportunities to feel.
My Godmother played a significant part of my life when I was growing up. She showed me pure love and she always demonstrated that to me when I saw her. When I heard of her passing I felt the loss, but the grief was not settling in. Then 2 weeks later my other close friend was gone and it was a snowball effect of numbness. I felt the loss but not the grief and I now know that I was not listening to my soul. Each of my people that passed were close to me but left families behind that they were torn away from. I keep them in my prayers as I know what that grief feels like but because I know, I believe I was choosing, as I said earlier, to not “GO THERE!”
Well the Holy Spirit has been knocking and knocking, while I have just been listening to that knock and then another friend was tragically taken away. I needed to hear the news over the phone like 4 times to make sure I was hearing what I was hearing. Then God started to push that door open instead of knocking. He loves us so much that sometimes He just needs to bust the door down. I know I have a blessed life and continue to know that He Loves me so much. It was important for me to say this because He wants me to know its ok to GO THERE because He will be there with me.
So I am doing something personal between me and God for each of my loved ones that I have lossed and also getting back into the game of serving Jesus! My two Passions, my true passions in life is talking and sharing about Jesus and coaching. As I listen to my soul and allow the Holy Spirit to mend me, I want to share with you that Jesus’ love for us is something that is permanent. I can tell you as I pray for the loved ones of my friends and family that have moved on to Heaven, In my life as I stop and look at the big picture, I am LIVING THE DREAM!! A LIFE GUIDED BY AND FILLED WITH CHRIST! I pray for all of you that have dealt with loss that you would stop and take the time to listen to your soul and allow Jesus to meet with you and sit with you in that grief!
One Love, One King, All Christ!
