There have been two times now in my life that events of tragedy or broken trust have drained me and turned me into the prodigal son. Now I made the choices in both situations after believing I had trusted God to guide me through it. The truth be told I didn’t trust him, I went off of what I “felt” was the right way to deal with it. When that burden became to heavy I turned to all of what I wanted to and not to what God had provided for me. I learned a long time ago that I need to be in love with Jesus the way he is in love with me. Here I am with the Power of Christ on my side and I am turning to meaningless ways of dealing with my hurt and my issues.
However, here is the BEST part, on my second return home guess what? JESUS is the father running off the porch to meet me. Not only does he meet me but provides for me a feast of wisdom and knowledge of how I need to turn to him always. He lets me know that he will let me turn away if that is what I feel I need to do, but more so he wants me to indulge in the love he has for me. Whether it is money, relationships, past sins or present troubles or victories, he wants me to know he is with me through it all. It doesn’t mean I won’t feel certain ways, but it is in those feelings that I need to learn to sit. This is stuff I have known from before, but again I made choices because of man and not God that caused my heart to harden and then to grow callused. I never realized how cold and angry I was until someone in my family was gone and my reaction was like it was someone on the news. That night I realized in my heart of hearts I was turned. Jesus has provided for me a beautiful life and no matter how many turns I have taken for the worse he has been there to lead me back to the straight and narrow path. It is a mission to remain here but so worth the cost. As I finish let me tell you, there is an amazing comfort when Jesus starts to surface again in our lives and for me it starts when I am praying about something and to later get a call of confirmation from someone God uses in my life.
The power of hearing her voice confirm my prayers and is such a sacred and beautiful thing. It is something I do not want to take for granted anymore. I have returned to Christ and pray to fall back in love with my first love. Amen
One Love, One King, All Christ!
