I live my life as if I know
How every plan will workout
I have trouble accepting the word No
And my Pride is a problem without a doubt

I must have some control
These parts of my life are mine
Yes, I know God wants me whole
But most of the time His mercy I decline

I think I know what’s best
It’s my life and my choices
His love for me is hard to digest
This is caused I know by Satan’s many voices

How do I give you all of who I am
I want to surrender my problem of control
I know I am free by the blood of the Lamb
But now I want freedom for my bound soul

I have been scared to change for so long
That this has caused my flesh to always prevail
The willingness to give in felt so strong
In the end the Lie I listen to is an ungodly betrayal

My flesh will always want to choose
In Christ, however the choice is to submit
Through my brokenness I must repent and refuse
The subtleness of the Devils wit

Only God can truly be in control of me
This truth revealed is divinely intense
I found myself humbled on bended knee
Because it was just for me that he spared no expense

His Healing has given me back my shameless youth
What once was stolen, through Christ is mine again
Jesus Christ provides us with the perfect Truth
Which is I am His Beloved Child and for that I say Amen