My Heart
My Heart has been hardened by the loss of my mom. It was something I did not even realize until now. Even though the past 2 years have not seemed so different. You learn that life doesn’t care when you lose someone and it keeps on moving forward. It was in that where I was caught in the mix. I kinda fell into cruise control and just lived my life very bland. God has chosen me for very special purposes in my life and because of my hardened heart I have missed many opportunities to allow God to use me the way He wants too. I have prayed for my heart to soften and I know it can only happen with obedience and faith and application of truly following Christ. Life can seem so regular and not urgent when your heart is hardened and it allows you to miss out on the brokenness of others. This life is not ours when we choose to follow Christ and when we become selfish our heart and our armor(Mask) begin to way us down. We feel the burden of following God and we turn away to what we consider the easy way out. The only way to be true to yourself is to allow people to know the real you. Your past and your choices have been covered by the Blood of the Lamb, it is time to remove the mask and let people into the real you. God has been with me through all of my trials and the only thing He has asked of me is to trust Him. My heart has been in a dark place, but it is not what keeps you down that makes you strong, it is how God lifts you up. He calls us to be soldiers and priest of the Most High. My faith is not used as a crutch to blind me from the real world, it is used as a double edged sword to stand strong for those who cannot stand for themselves. I choose Jesus and a soft heart that can be molded like clay. AMEN!
