Holy Spirit- the Hammer that shatters glass and forges iron

Once we accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior we are consumed and filled with the Holy Spirit.  He is much like a bodyguard or better yet a soul guard.  He is prepared to do battle for us and He is also there to love on us.  He can even pray for us when we can not or do not know what to pray for.  There are so many of us with the Holy Spirit in us but rarely do we utilize His services like we should.  The amazing thing is as humans, even with God in us, we still choose our own god(self).  Every choice we make in “self” is like a hammer shattering a plane of glass.  Every hope and dream we try and obtain on our own and without God is shattered.  Notice I did not mention success, because we know in this world you can have “success” and not know or believe in God.  Our hopes and dreams come from our souls and they are the desires that were woven into our minds when God created us.  I have not only experienced the shattered glass in my choices, but I took it one step further and walked barefoot around all those shards just prolonging my stubbornness and selfishness.  The image of the Hammer(Holy Spirit) striking down on that glass and shattering it is a vision my mind can see and hear clearly.  It is such a chaotic and violent sound and there is no order.  The glass is broken and spread out across a vast area.  When we try and live this life alone, this is how our thoughts end up. The glass has no chance against the Hammer!

However, when we choose to finally surrender and allow the God in us, the one true Lover of us, who consumed our all when we said yes to him, Victory begins.  When this happens and the Hammer begins its violent descent upon us, it is like the forging of Iron.  The same velocity used to shatter the glass simply shapes the iron.  Jesus lets us know that iron sharpens iron and if we allow the Holy Spirit to reign, He will make us strong.  When we allow the Holy Spirit to be our frontman we are molded and protected by the impact He(The Hammer) makes in our life.  As he continues to forge us He reminds us to hold true to the power and strength of what He offers and not turn to the weakness and chaos of the shattered glass.  The shattered glass is what we are use to.  We love to go places we know even if they are dangerous.  The truth is as The Holy Spirit forges the iron, God shows me He Loves me so much that once I say yes to Him my sins are forgiven and forgotten.  The impact of “The Hammer” on my life is clear and expressed with power and majesty in:

1st Corinthians 13:4-7

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Now what resonates in my heart and soul is the beginning of verse 8 which says “Love Never Fails!” Amen.

This lesson has impacted me the most as I am learning what Agape love is.  I have been so selfish in my life that I have always, even subconsciously, expected something in return.  I can say that I am now better at loving just to give through prayer and humility.  I know this love I am experiencing is real because I seriously just want happiness for them, regardless if they will be a part of my life or not.  I want them to be healed of their pain and prayer for their favor and happiness.  I honestly for the first time in my life, where I usually would NOT do this, I am doing this for them and not me.  There are few I have met that I have prayed for their salvation and a hope they can meet someone to share Christ with them.  Jesus is teaching me and breaking me and it’s all so new to me.  You see my friends the honest truth is I have never truly been in love and now for the first time I think I am.  He is becoming my everything and as He pours into me He opens my eyes to those around me.  I do realize Loving like God is about truly giving and  not receiving or expecting something in return.  It is pouring into others and then rest assured God will pour back into me.  He is my return, He is my expectation, He is my Gift!  As I am learning to put my hope in Him, I am realizing that I love well and I battle when I start to “feel” the pull like I should get something.  I am putting my childish ways behind me and asking Jesus and the Holy Spirit to show me how to Love.  I am learning not to put my hope or validation in people but in every situation turn to Him and Holy Spirit.  Making sure that everything I do is for His glory.  I do surrender all of me to Him and simply say with conviction ” I’M ALL IN!”  Let me finish with my new life verse from the Great 8… Romans 8 that is! And it’s:

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. AMEN

One Love, One King, All Christ!

Praise to the Amazing, Inspiring, Awesome One True God

Praise to the Amazing, Inspiring, Awesome One True God

Take a look up and gaze at the stars
Each of these a possible destination
A place I reminisce to create my memoirs
Deep Beyond is The Kingdom of God through Salvation

Our God resides past the cosmos
Watching and praying over the details of each life
Though His throne is in Heaven to my heart He is close
As Jesus treats His Bride the church I hope to treat my wife

I praise Him for this renewing
That my soul and spirit rejoice
Praising Him that I am no longer chasing but pursuing
This wonderful Counselor, Redeemer, Lover of me, God of my choice

God says He will turn all things to good
In our blessings and pain He reveals
Its not that I should, could or would
And definitely no longer live based on how life feels

Each thought of Him brings beauty to my mind
Each vision of Him brings me to my knees
I now praise Him for the years I have been blind
Without this darkness, His love and my soul, would have remained uneased

I am thankful to the second Adam for His Will
He chose to die on a cross so that I may live
Knowing His last human breath was on that hill
Death was not His end, but what it truly means to forgive

For my spiritual life that once was dark and dim
There are no more reasons to listen to the evil one’s lie
With each and every breath of mine I shall use to praise Him
I claim Glory and Honor to thee, God, The Most High

Repent of Self

I am going to try something new in my life, every aspect of it.  This is concept that has been thrown around in my life for years but I have never truly pursued it.  Praying and serving others with no expectation of anything in return.  I am speaking of extreme changes, becoming a soul investor instead of a selfish (all about me) consumer.  I will not pray for myself for the next 60 days, I will leave my life and desires in God’s hands and those that pray for me.  I know for me that anything that I have done in “self” always the results were negative.  The foundation of my self first type thinking started from young since I was the baby of the family and yes spoiled.  This has played a huge role in my thought and emotion life.  As I reflect on my life I realize that as I have been molded it has been me who has been doing the molding.  It would be like telling Michael Angelo to step aside so I could finish the Sistine Chapel!  How much more of an artist is God, yet for the last 20 years I (self) has known what is best.  (Just for the record I am color blind and at best draw stick figures)   I was asked by a friend the other day “Do you think someone has to hit rock bottom before they can truly follow Christ?”  I said I believe everyone needs to hit a spiritual rock bottom, however for those who are stubborn and stone-hearted a physical, emotional and/or monetary rock bottom needs to happen.  When we learn that God is slow to anger, we need to remember He can get angry.

Now, let me share with you a quick testimony of this past week and how God on last Sunday placed a heavy burden of conviction on my heart.  The truth told was I have always been about myself.  There has been this innate draw to isolation because it would feed my appetite for unworthiness.  I could numb myself, act out and then grovel in the guilt and shame to then repeat it again.  I was living like this until last Saturday.  Now God has been doing great things in my life but mostly He has cleared my mind and heart to start to see where I am weak.  What was laughed about and made a joke by all of us on Monday could have easily changed my path of life for the worst.  All because of selfishness and not caring about myself deep down at my core.  I found myself on my knees on Saturday night and soon was flat on my face crying out to God and praising Him for my undeserved favor and mercy.  I have known of His mercy but have taking it for granted all these years because I always chose me before God.  When I wanted to sin I would and it wouldn’t matter how close to Jesus I was when my flesh said jump I said how high.  During this weekend of repentance and conviction, God filled it with a sermon on Love ( His Agape Love).  On my way home from another evening service it hit me.  I was on the phone with a friend and pouring out what was going on.  Let me just take a moment to jump back in time about 9 years ago. A former mentor of mine said he had a dream and if I didn’t change what I was doing I would end up in prison or worse.  At the time, I was not doing anything that I thought was crazy but it did scare me because I had seen the Holy Spirit work through him several times before.  Now back to my phone call with my friend on Sunday.  As we were talking it hit me a reminder of what my mentor said and as I remembered the Holy Spirit began to talk.  He let me know that if I continued, as in one more time, the mercy and favor that I have been covered with would be gone.  If you, Anthony, want to be so stubborn and do not want to take to heart this warning then maybe you will need to learn the hard way!  The fear of the Lord fell upon me as I was sitting in my car and listening to my friend.  I decided at that moment to give Him all of my struggles and blessings an surrendered all of myself to Him.  There is NO good in me(self) except for Christ Jesus.  The conviction was clear and the choice is still mine.  A pastor I listen to weekly said ” We know the truth, but we don’t do the truth.”  That has been me trying to straddle the fence when there is no fence.  I have not been placing God at my core rather I am been serving myself as god.

This same pastor said you can hear the hissing of the serpent every time you use or think of self.  This is a reminder that the evil one will always attack us at our core, our individualism.  My prayer is to follow the schedule I have made and that my prayers and focus will not be about me, but about YOU!  Those same prayers about you will not have a hidden agenda of somehow blessing or involving me and what I want.  My goal is to become a soul investor and hope that you will see Jesus in me.  True healing and recovery come from serving others.  It brings peace and serenity to me when I stop thinking about me.  This will not be easy but it will get done because the Holy Spirit will be my guide and Jesus, through His word, will be my teacher.  This “self” life is entangled in my soul, however Jesus being the surgeon He is has already started to cut away that sin.  The process has started and I just need to act like a grown up about it.  I will pray for those I dislike, the lost and instead of praying for the relationships I am in I will pray for the person’s of those relationships.  I do not want to be a part of any of the outcomes or prayers I am living my path and my life in the hands of Jesus. It starts with me and I will say, with the Lord by my side, ” I REPENT OF SELF!” Amen

One Love, One King, All Christ!