god’s time not mine

It wasn’t even a thought
I knew you would be around
But a life lesson I was taught
As you were sought after by Heavens Hound

This seems like a dream
I wish it would just have ended
My heart started to scream
Because to Heaven your soul had ascended

Jesus said” come be with me”
It’s my time to be with you
No more pain Adele you are free
Tell me daughter do you like the view

Oh, parts of me wish you were here
To be with me and hold my hand
Like when you sat on my bed when I was in fear
Teaching your son how to take a stand

I pray I can love as well as you
That my heart will pour out
Those that love like this are few
To tell people the truth and what they are really about

I just don’t understand Lord
You took her from me so early in my life
Will you remove from my grieving Heart this sword?
She didn’t even get to see my wife

The place, the time, and the way
I know it’s in your plan
It’s Peace not understanding why I pray
Our fate has been chosen by you since before man

I know in Heaven she is at peace
For that I am greatly overjoyed
It has caused my Faith to seriously increase
Knowing this is done, in His time, has filled the void.

Thank you Papa for the truth of Paradise
To know I will again one day feel her touch
For now my Faith will have to suffice
Oh Lord, I miss her so very much!

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         Hello my friends it has been more than 2 years since I have written any devotionals.  I have taken time to try and run from something I can’t run from Grief.  I have accepted my mom’s passing but the depth of what effect it had on my life was incredible.  Like a thief in the night, Satan used depression and worthlessness to deceive me into believing I was not worth it. Well 2 years and 2 weeks later I am here to say I am back by and only by the Power of Christ.  He has kept his hand on me throughout this whole time and is pulling me up out of the quicksand I purposely stepped into.  It is very hard to lose someone, but even more so when it is unexpected.  Life is so precious and it would not be fair to keep what God says through me to myself.  My mom left a Crown of Life that continues to grow to this day and I want to allow my Crown of life to do the same.  I want to be a good friend and I want people to know that I choose Christ.  So I want to say Hello, again and allow what God places on my heart through devotions, laments and poems guide you and help you to love those around you more and to experience what it truly means to be God’s one and only, His Beloved. SELAH!

Life Without You!

Life without you seems so unreal
Do you believe its almost been a year
My selfishness says I got the short end of the deal
But life without you is my burden to bear

I know and believe your in a better place
Far away from all of your pain
But that belief does not fill my hearts empty space
Nor the millions of thoughts of you flying around in my brain

You took such good care of me
Always worried about my needs
It was your uncondtional that was the key
That has helped me as a man sow many good seeds

When will I believe in myself
With the passion that you believed in me
Always you smiled even sacrificing your health
Always you greived for what Christ did for us on that tree

Life Without You, SELAH!