The return of a son

There have been two times now in my life that events of tragedy or broken trust have drained me and turned me into the prodigal son.  Now I made the choices in both situations after believing I had trusted God to guide me through it.  The truth be told I didn’t trust him, I went off of what I “felt” was the right way to deal with it.  When that burden became to heavy I turned to all of what I wanted to and not to what God had provided for me.  I learned a long time ago that I need to be in love with Jesus the way he is in love with me.  Here I am with the Power of Christ on my side and I am turning to meaningless ways of dealing with my hurt and my issues.

However, here is the BEST part, on my second return home guess what?  JESUS is the father running off the porch to meet me.  Not only does he meet me but provides for me a feast of wisdom and knowledge of how I need to turn to him always.  He lets me know that he will let me turn away if that is what I feel I need to do, but more so he wants me to indulge in the love he has for me. Whether it is money, relationships, past sins or present troubles or victories, he wants me to know he is with me through it all.  It doesn’t mean I won’t feel certain ways, but it is in those feelings that I need to learn to sit.  This is stuff I have known from before, but again I made choices because of man and not God that caused my heart to harden and then to grow callused.  I never realized how cold and angry I was until someone in my family was gone and my reaction was like it was someone on the news.  That night I realized in my heart of hearts I was turned.   Jesus has provided for me a beautiful life and no matter how many turns I have taken for the worse he has been there to lead me back to the straight and narrow path.  It is a mission to remain here but so worth the cost.  As I finish let me tell you, there is an amazing comfort when Jesus starts to surface again in our lives and for me it starts when I am praying about something and to later get a call of confirmation from someone God uses in my life.

The power of hearing her voice confirm my prayers and is such a sacred and beautiful thing.  It is something I do not want to take for granted anymore.  I have returned to Christ and pray to fall back in love with my first love.  Amen

One Love, One King, All Christ!

Deeply Rooted (God has to take his time) We are so Deep!

What is it about our routines that turn us into such robots?  Even when things change and we find a new routine or hobby or even addiction we fall into it and that is who we are.  Many of us identify ourselves by what we think of ourselves on the inside.  I learned a long time ago it is easy to put on that friendly I got everything under control mask.  We can respond correctly to so many situations but yet inside we are in a battle that is not quite containable.  I mean God literally knows the count of every hair on our head, in my case roots of the hair that use to be there, but WOW.  Why is such awesomeness met with such mediocrity?  What is it in our human nature that pushes us so hard to not open our eyes to the one true God?  There are people today men, women and children who die because they believe in Jesus Christ.  We sit here in America and say that we would but how do we really know? You Don’t
We have a lot to lose in many of our eyes.  We have families, children of our own and let’s not forget our self.  Sometime when something has been a part of your life for so long God will take his time in removing it from your soul because if he was to rip it out it would cause severe trauma.  He is meticulous in his will.  If you ever read the Old Testament and see how he wants things built, they are to the centimeter or drachma (I know this is currency) or whatever the measurement of that time was.  He is the same when he works on us.  I never stopped to realize what he is doing when he is working on us.  Not only is he dealing with our soul, heart, flesh and sinful nature, but also our routines.  He knows us and can easily change anyone if he wanted but because he cares he takes his time.  I am now only realizing in my battle to draw near to him that it is a slow process.  It has taken me 35 years to get the way I am and in order for me to be the man God has called me to be I have to allow him to use the scalpel and remove the darkness piece by piece so that when all that is left is a scar I can be humbled and reminded that he saved my life and loves me.  My prayer my friends, that I ask of you for me, if I should cross your mind, is that I would recognize the urgency and danger of just living on the fence.  While I am on the side where we are supposed to be I need to let God do his surgical work on me.  Amen!

One Love, One King, All Christ!

The Change

When I was younger my selfish ways always and I mean ALWAYS won. Now as I start to see the purpose of life and how Christ influences us daily to follow him I realize the beauty of each relationship.  There are some to honor and be thankful for and there are others that test our faith. Each of these allows God to make us stronger in our weakness. Though we are all different we all suffer the same! The pain we feel is pain regardless of the consequence that brought it upon us. Christ’s love is more than enough in the good and the bad, in the happy and the sad! Amen!!
Live Like Your Loved!