God Breathed Instructions

Well after 2 days of Solitude with Jesus I can say it was amazing.  The first night was just so quiet over the balcony and the stars in the sky over the ocean were awe inspiring.  As I sat I waited, I did not pray nor did I make a sound, I sat and I listened.  My heart raced and a million things went through my mind, but finally in the dark of a star lit night, I heard the peace I was waiting for.  Then the messages began and they were bold and confirming of what my life is and has become for Jesus.  He spoke to me and gave me peace, conviction and ultimately covered me with the Grace of God, which I want to let change me.  I asked for a sign that night and though it was not what I was suspecting, sure enough Christ gave me one.  It also came at the end, it was the exclamation point if you will.  I wrote down all he said and a few of those things were for me to go through a purification process with him, where I finally let the Holy Spirit mold me more into the man others see and stop believing the lies I believe.  Secondly, though I have said it a few times already allow the grace of god to change me and not use it as an excuse to stay where I am at!  For me to continue to Honor my word and my actions as many of the people in my life trust me because Jesus has helped me to be a man of integrity.  Also, learning to love myself enough to change, there is a reason why Jesus says the second most important commandment is Love your neighbor as you love yourself. ( Matthew 22:39)  I have come to understand if I cannot love myself through how God sees me then I will not be genuine in my love for my friends and family and those who are lost.  Though my life is not about me, it most certainly is about Jesus’ love for me.  This few days alone with him has changed who I am and who I want to be.  Life is what it is, but Jesus is always TRUTH.  I am thankful for my shooting star, my exclamation point to remember where it is God wants me to go, which is to Follow him.  I pray that I would be able to be obedient to my Papa in a way that makes him proud. One Love, One King, All Christ!

What a Day!

Well today is my mom’s 76th birthday and she has been in Heaven for 4 years now. This day used to be a somber day for me up until about 3 years ago. The reason, my brother (from another mother) and his wife had twin boys on this day. I never realized they had the same birthday as my mom until then. Now, having twins is special in and of itself however, it becomes even more miraculous. You see they weren’t supposed to make it but God had other plans and they turned 7 years old today. So as special as today is for them, what they don’t realize is how much healing they bring to me to be able to still celebrate this beautiful day. June 14th… One Love, One King, All Christ!

Trusting

I have seen an amazing example of what it means to Trust in the Lord.  I actually have seen two.Both cases deal with couples who trusted that God would bless them with babies.  They trusted even in the face of the devastation of miscarriages.  However, they realized even within those loses that their child was alive in Heaven, but more so they trusted and God has given both of these couples more than one baby.  The blessings that come from our God is amazing and always in his timing.  It is so hard for me to grasp his timing because I always want the instant gratification.  I want the magic wand effect on my life, unfortunately that is not reality and the quicker I realize that trusting in the Lord means living in His Will daily the sooner I will experience his peace in my life.  I have come to realize that I do not have peace because I choose not to, it is almost as if I keep myself ready to run even when I do something to glorify him.  I think it is so weird that I feel like running when God is doing something good in my life.  Now don’t get me wrong, Jesus is my life and the blessings are constant, but I keep myself in turmoil.  I want to have the faith of a mustard seed, like these two couples did.  They had fear, anxiety and doubt, but ultimately their faith in Christ led them past that, they allowed Jesus to carry those burdens for them and then trusted that he was the Redeemer and Re-warder that he claims to be.  My life is changing and I feel myself maturing in Christ daily and I am longing for that peace and you know what I am going to Trust in My God with all of who I am and Trust that He will reward me with the Peace I desire from him.  I can tell you knowing Jesus is on your side and feeling him there is an amazing truth.  I am thankful and humbled that we have a Big God who loves us so much, he chooses to live life with us instead of waiting for us to get to him.  Thank you Papa for chasing after me and choosing me!

One Love, One King, All Christ!!