John 1:5 (NIV)
5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome[a] it.
The past 2 months have been such a transforming time for my soul. God has truly placed his hands upon me and has guided the Holy Spirit in molding me. I have read the above verse probably a thousand times and never understood it until now. What we consider as impossible, to God is very much possible. When we battle our inner demons we feel defeated. We continually say I can’t stop this or worse we just accept it as who we are and lose the battles the rest of our lives. God recently revealed to me in prayer that the majority of the pleasure I have experienced in my life has been to avoid pain. HOW CRAZY IS THAT? I haven’t been able to enjoy many of the small victories in life because I always look to find what is wrong with me. Today is a different day and God is revealing so much and for this I am thankful, especially thankful for deliverance.
When God says and talks about the word being light, He is talking about our Savior, Jesus. Every moment with Jesus in the New Testament shows Jesus making the darkness run away and healing those who came close. Healing is what we all desire in life because of the wounds we experience. We have scars, but many of those have not healed well and are just scabbed over and easy to bleed again. We desire healing, but God calls for us to scar up not smooth up. Our scars remind us of where God has been with us and that he doesn’t leave. As I watch the rerun of my life to this point I see how influenced my life has been by my pain. Now, I can see who I am in Christ I am excited to see how the rest of life will pan out with God leading and me following.
I am currently at a place in my life that I thought I would never be able to reach with God. A place of Surrender where I can hear God clearly. Where he is constantly speaking peace to my heart and placing a calming hand on my thoughts. I am now gaining wisdom on his terms and not mine, a prayer I prayed many mango seasons ago. The light of Christ is now covering me, no longer the darkness I use to feel comfort in. I can feel that the grave clothes have been removed, they have fallen off and the warmth of my Heavenly Father’s embrace is overwhelming. I have learned that the grave clothes fall off the body but don’t completely detach. We drag them behind us, enough so that we walk with a slight limp. That is a reminder to not become complacent in Christ and remember the enemy(Satan) is lurking like a HUNGRY STARVING BIG TOOTHED ROTTED GUMMED LION! The more I follow and stay in the light the further away the darkness and grave clothes feel. It doesn’t have an impact on my decisions or thoughts but I still need to know it is there and my healing needs to be intentional. By giving God my full surrender and waiting on his transcending peace and not on “What I want” or worse ” What I THINK is best” for me I am experiencing worship in a deeper and more meaningful way. I cannot believe how much God has changed me in these past few weeks. I can only imagine what years of progress of living in Christ will be like. My dear, dear Friends, God can fix you, you can stop and most importantly HE LOVES YOU! Amen
One Love, One King, All Christ!
