Do you ever wake up and have a sense of anxiety?  There is this feeling like something is wrong or that you did something wrong. It may also be like you forgot something important or maybe even something you did and knew you shouldn’t but then beg for forgiveness after the fact.  Well, I think we all feel this feeling at one point or another maybe even several thousand times in our lives.  Now I know John 10:10 says that we are to live this life in abundance with Christ at our center, but that doesn’t mean we stop feeling bad, nervous, frightened or anxious.  It does mean when we feel these attacks we can hold on to the truth that Jesus will carry us through.  When we reach for YHWH(God) the all mighty father, it is usually when we need Him the most in our lives.  This is how we come to meet Him in the first place right? Rock Bottom?

When I take a moment to look back on my life and even in my current situation of life, I clearly see it has been by my own handy work that I have been snared by the temptations of the enemy.  I know truth and I know God and I know the battle is not with flesh and bone but with the spirit realm.  Yet, even in my knowledge of this truth I still choose to fall to the most obvious of traps.  At 40 years old I pretty much know myself and know what makes me fall and what makes me suffer, but as humans we tend to become ok with it.  It is as if we feel we deserve these feelings or things that happen to us.  The crazy thing is how fast we are ready to blame God for the bad things that happen when, in most cases, it was by our own doing we became trapped.  I refuse to continue to live this way because I hate waking up feeling like I have lost the fight, when I know good and well I am a Champion in Christ.  This World is filled with evil and it reigns supreme in the eyes of those around us, even amongst believers, there is doubt when it comes to why so much bad happens.  Well, if you take the time to read the bible you realize that this is what is going to happen before Christ returns.  The World will continue to crumble and we can either sit back and watch or choose to take a stand and live for Christ and the purpose He has placed in our lives.

You see, my friends, YHWH created each of us and He knew then all of the experiences we would have… The Good… The Bad… and the Ugly.  He knew that we would easily make our own way to the bad and the ugly, but He needed to place a sacrifice in order to make sure we all had a chance to experience the good.  I am sure many of you believe you have a good life, but when I speak of experiencing the good with God, I mean experiencing what it is to have your soul restored.  The evil one spends the majority of our lives placing us in bondage, having us believe we are in control or simply just pounding us into submission.  The Good of life with God is when you are sick and tired of being sick and tired and you let God take control.  It is when we finally release the chains, look up and beg for our freedom.  It is in that exhale that the healing begins, however, that healing takes time and is a process.  You will not fix 37 years of brokenness in 1 year of recovery, but you will experience healing.  It is just like a cut, some of the cuts we have stay open longer than others.  The one thing we know about cuts, whether deep or shallow is they leave a scar.  Being scarred up in this life is Victory because each of those scars represents and open wound that you once never let heal.  I do not want to take away the power of temptation by the enemy but, my friends, we must take responsibility for our own actions and even if a decision may cause waves, even with those you love, it is better to cause waves and ride them together then to sit in still waters and not recognize the monster rising to devour our joy from beneath!  Keep your hands reaching to YHWH and remember Jesus on the cross as His hands and His position on the cross is how He, The Father and The Holy Spirit accept us, with Arms Wide Open!! and Ready TO EMBRACE!!!  Amen

One Love, One King, All Christ