Routine- Automatic Response
This choice of wanting a soft heart carries with it a very strict discipline of putting God first. What I mean is it is so hard because of the auto response our bodies and minds have to certain stimuli. No matter the case, I find myself in auto- pilot sometimes, thinking or doing something that is hurtful to me and others. My life is not my own and the more I repeat that I think the more I will understand other people matter. Narcissism is a very common struggle for us and I have found myself stuck in a place where it always ends up being about me. Well I learned from God, through reading the bible, that my armor though it protects me from the arrows of the Evil one, it does not protect me from the destruction of my soul and spirit as my body rots in hiding. It was not until the Mighty Warrior General, Naaman, ( 2 Kings:5) removed his armor, and trusted the Lord, and revealed his weakness and brokenness in front of all of his men that his flesh and soul were healed. I am much like Naaman, in that I wear my armor proudly, but many times I do not reveal the truth of my brokenness and that is where my strength lies. I must trust the Lord and follow him, and put to rest the whispers and lies of who I believe I am. I must begin to Trust and know and Believe in the Man that God believes I am. He trusts me with so many lives and with the ability to share his awesomeness. This is a time when lives are changed and mine is changing now. I surrender to you, My King, and will follow wherever you lead me.. Selah!
