Make today a day to repent. Look back at your past and realize your brokenness is not who you are. You have been created in the image of our Adonai. Regardless of what you believe, God believes in you. Your sins and struggles are not an issue with our Papa. Trust fully in His grace and know we are all saints and called to be Priests o f the Most High.
LET GO AND LET GOD Amen
The guilt I carry is something I have created to keep me in a circular routine away from accepting God’s love for me. I live my life in a way that keeps me safe from being hurt or at least I think it does. I keep away from doing fully what God wants and in turn I keep away from receiving all he has to give. There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus, and this is a statement of truth as it is the word of God the Father. I want to fully accept the law of the Spirit and change how I live my life. The book of Romans, as I tell people, is a book written to believers about being slaves to sin. The sad part about my life is that I have been so used to being a slave that I can’t see what God places before me. When we see ourselves as slaves its hard to accept that we are adopted into God’s family. The thing about adoption in the Jewish culture is that once you are adopted you cannot be disowned. This is the purpose of Christ allowing us to know we have been adopted into his family. I am loved by God and he wants to do all he can to show me his love. I have known Jesus for quite sometime, but have constantly felt trapped on a fence between his will and my control. I have come to understand that I have no control and my life is his. I choose now to stop being selfish and to serve him as he sees fit. I will no longer live in comfort of my doing but will choose to live in the radical shadow of Christ Jesus. I pray and hope that my decision will be pleasing to God and that he will help me in being committed to a new way of life. I want a life that glorifies him in all that I do from when I wake up in the morning to when I close my eyes to sleep at night.
One of the hardest things in my life is to learn to wait on God. I want everything right now and it’s weird because I have conditioned myself this way. I would believe that if I do something right for God then he should bless me. Wow, was I wrong, this is not a barter system we have with Jesus. He is constantly blessing those that love him. No matter how many times I say this to myself and pray about it I always end up asking the question, When is it my time, Lord? You see I want so many things and yet I want them to fall into my lap. It’s not that God doesn’t want to answer the prayers I have prayed, but what effort in my heart, body, mind, and soul am I willing to surrender to him. I watch other peoples lives and see things going well for them and I say come on Lord I want that. Well, God has taught me an awesome lesson again and the truth is what we see on the outside or what we see as the grass is greener, may not be all its cut out to be. There are many people in this world who have everything you could possible want and desire, yet there is something missing. We choose not to accept the fact that Christ is the missing piece. I know in my life I stay in a constant battle between good and evil. My body and brain want so badly to sin and my soul and Holy Spirit want so badly to love those that are broken. I look at this world and through all the crap I realize one thing. The only way to live is Christ centered. Yes, you will make sacrifices beyond your imagination, but they will in turn help Jesus mold you into the man or woman of God that he created you to be. I would like to end by stating for the record, Jesus did answer my question and he simply said, My Son your time is now! Serve me and obey me and thats all you need to do right now. Amen and Amen
